Unconditional

To My husband Kerry,

Today I realized just what unconditional love meant.

You put yourself aside and took a step back in time with me..

a step that made me realize I have a life with

you now. Granted, it is so different from the life I had before;

crazier, busy, all of those things that drive people apart.

But, much more meaningful. I have so many

faults. Things that I have carried over with me through the years.

And many times these things create strife and conflict.

I'm not meaning to take all blame for the problems

that arise in our life.We are all fallible.

But you make me see them.

How proud I was to have you at my side today.

You are my life.

I can make it without you..

But I Don't Want Too!

Kim

Sunset for my Kim Kim

This picture of a sunset is one my husband

posted for me;knowing how I love sunsets.

I cried when I saw it was posted on

his blog, and I had him post it

here for me.

I always say I love sunsets, and hope

we always see them together.

.

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This Path I'm on

This Path I'm on

Well, I'm on a path to where…?
or am I on a pathless land as my
very wise husband says?
All I know is the very two incidences that
happened to me these past two days
have changed how I feel and
look at things in my life and career.
As I said before (how many times now?)
I feel my job is not a job…
but a calling.

Let me explain;

I have two full-time clients that I take care of.
Both different, but really the same.
One of my clients is a disabled
lady that is diabetic, and that had
brain cancer when she was eleven
years old; this has unfortunately affected
her all her life. Her balance,
memory, and gait is very unsteady
and uncertain. She has lived a life
that I can only stand in awe of. Her oldest son
died of brain cancer when
he was 35. She depends solely on her
husband for everything-
food, transportation etc...
Yet she always has a smile and a kind word for
everyone...even when she is in extreme pain.
She is a very devout lady-
and I call her My Shining Star.
Then two days ago she suffered a stroke
while I was sitting with her.
I called 911 and her husband who was at work-
they took her to the hospital where she is
now awaiting physical therapy-
and unfortunately a mass was found on her brain.
Hopefully, not cancer again.
Everyone commented on how calm
and strong I was-until I got home.
Then I fell apart. But I told my husband-
seeing the EMT's in action
awoke something in me...maybe?
Next my other client is a disabled lady
who suffers from post-polio syndrome.
She also is a very devout lady-but one with a
backbone of steel and fire in her spirit.
She has a husband who was the sole provider
until unfortunately he was laid
off from his job (don't you love America)
and then developed blood clots
that has prevented him from further working.
They have an awesome fourteen-year old son.
Now, my client is in extreme pain from the stress
of caring for her husband and son...
I had to take her to the E/R the
other day for a pain shot.
This is extremely rare for this lady...
she usually bears the pain well. But once again
as I was sitting in the E/R with this lady,
I felt a pull, a tugging in the direction of what?...
Now this lady and her family
are facing eviction due to not being able to pay their rent…
I so want to help, but can't find the way or the words…
I guess what I'm saying is this…
will I eventually become numb to this?
I hope not, but sometimes this job I love
takes all I have to give…
and unfortunately leaves nothing for myself…
And the husband that
I love so much, and deserves more than I have to give.
He is fighting his own battle (search kerry walker story)
...as so am I…

Illusions

I wrote this one afternoon as I was sitting on the porch
at peace, and contemplating life and how
we tend to view this thing called love...

So you tell me I live in a world of Illusions.
That I truly do not see the real thing.Sadly,
I must agree with you.
But time has taught me a few things,
things that I am powerless over,
and things I can control.

Such as my love for you. As great as it is,
I know that I cannot project certain images upon it.
Like thinking we will be together forever. Since I don't believe in
forever ( I once thought I did) I just take one day
at a time with you.
I've learned that no love stays the same.
It changes with the times.
The good times and the bad.

Then there is mine and your happiness.
I have learned I can control my happiness,
and that I should not expect you to be responsible for it.
I cannot hold you prisoner to that thought.
Likewise, your happiness is your responsibility.
I'm not saying I do not want to make you happy. Not that at all.

I just don't want to be a prisoner of that thought either.

Living a Dream

Well, here we are in this small country town of Jasper, Tn.And what a journey it has been.But we're here and by the grace of God we'll be here for awhile. First of all I must say I am living this dream I have had for over 20 years .I was told by many people close to me that it would never happen..that's all it was.. a dream. But I never gave up and with many prayers, and the support of my family and coworkers who gave me outstanding references, it has come true. I always kept the faith..believing if God wants me here then it was to be. I'm employed by a large Home Healthcare Agency working with disabled individuals..and the things I have seen and learned! My clients are all struggling with some sort of disability, but never giving up..and I feel honored to be part of the support that helps them achieve these goals they set for themselves. As I said before in a previous Blog; this is not a job but a calling. Now I must take time to speak of my husband Kerry, who supported me and loved me unconditionally during this whole journey. He followed my dream; all the while fighting his own case (where he was falsely arrested for crimes he did not commit but were in fact committed against him; search kerry walker story) My husband recently had a big victory in court where he was granted the expungement of his criminal record stemming from his false arrest. I only hope and pray that I can return the love that Kerry and God have given me..by giving back to them (and my clients) all that I can give. ..and continue to live my Dream.

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On love, life, work and so on..

First of all let me say I am one grateful human being for all the good things in my life I am married to the love of my
life Kerry Walker,and even though life intrudes sometimes (a lot!) I know we love each other deeply and we strive to keep things in perspective.
Secondly, on my job. Actually, it is not a job but a calling. I am a Certified Nursing Assistant with a major Home Health Agency and I work with physically disabled
clients. I have learned so many things from my clients..patience, acceptance, humility and most of all, an empathy I did not know I had. It can be both physically and emotionally demanding, and lots of times I come home empty inside having left all my emotions with my clients. I realize this cannot be good, and I am working on this. But the good outweighs the bad, and I am grateful these people are in my life.
Last, but not least, there is my life which is really summed up by the above mentioned things..and one thing I guess that keeps me going. That is my faith..not just the Christian faith, but the faith I have that no matter how bad things are, and when things look really bleak, there is a brighter day. Not to sound pollyanna, but that is what life has taught me..just stand out of the way, just BE, and let life roll on...

After a while

What a Truth!

I would rather live my life as if there is a God,
and die to find out there isn't,
Than to live my life as there isn't
and die to find out there is.

A New Years Day Poem for my Husband Kerry

So a year has passed since you came
Into my life
You became my husband
And I your wife
So many things we have seen and done
Good times, hard times
All rolled into one
So as we begin another year
Lets love as we have in the past
And I know our love
Will last and last

Kim

A happy birthday for my husband Kerry

Well, yesterday (February 26th 2010) was a wonderful day. It was my husband's birthday.I had planned a trip to Gatlinburg and the Smokey Mountains as he had never been. In retrospect it was one of my better decisions. We had a Wonderful time. I had been there many times before, but seeing it through Kerry's eyes made a big difference. Kerry wanted to go to the highest peak (Clingmans Dome on Mt. Leconte) about 6,800 ft. up but it was blocked due to 40 ins. of snow there. We did make it to Newfound Gap which is over 5,000 feet. There was around 9 ins. of snow there...very, very cold, and very, very windy!!!!!!

We also went to the Wind Tunnel in Pigeon Forge. Kerry thought
this was very cool as he is a skydiver and he thought it would be
a great way to teach someone to skydive.

But I guess the highlight of the day (for him and me) was that on
the way home Kerry spotted a Mellow Mushroom Pizzeria. He did not know
there was one in that part of Tennessee and as I had never been we went
and I have to say it was the Bomb! They make all their dough
from natural ingredients so it is not only healthy but tastes great.

All in all it was a wonderful day and we already have plans to go back
and hike some of the nature trails there..especially one called Laurel Falls
as there is a Laurel Falls here in Rhea County that we have already hiked to.

Now back to waiting on warmer weather!

Oh, yea...we did some Go Kart racing and I kicked his tail..
(not really, although the attendent told Kerry he saw where I tried to run him over!)

Mrs. Walker

Well, yes I did get married to the Love of my Life. No planning or anything. Although we had talked about marriage for awhile, we just got up Monday morning and said "Let's get married." And so we did and are very happy. Surprised just about everyone but that's O.K. Wyn, Kerry's brother went along for the ride, and I was very happy to have him along. Kerry and I still reside in Evensville with our "children" MoJo, Mia and Laurel Snow ( aka Kitty Lou) . Kerry works at Advance Auto Parts in Dayton, and I work for two Home Health companies as a Nursing Assistant/Direct Support Staff. Needless to say our lives are very hectic (but happy). Hiking and all that stuff seems to be sort of a thing of the past right now, but come Spring we'll be back in action (hopefully!) We are also planning a Native American spiritual ceremony sometime in the future.


Kimberly Walker

Kerry and Kim get married

Mr. and Mrs. Walker

Catching Up

Well, lot's been happening. I did pass my State exam with flying colors.
I made an 88% on written exam, and (this is unbelievable to me!)
only missed one on my Skills Test (I didn't transport dirty linen correctly)
I was so afraid I had failed that I would not go online to check my scores.
Kerry had to do it for me!
I now have a job working at a Skills & Rehab Training Facility working with developmentally handicapped individuals. There is a lot of training with this job (almost like I'm back in school).
As I speak the weather is great, but it has been sooo rainey for the last couple of weeks. I about went stir crazy.
Kerry has been working a lot doing some specialty carpentry work; building a deck for his brother and working on some things for a friend of his who has just opened a Bar and Grill. It's funny, I have been helping him load lumber, shoot the nail gun, level things off etc...and have had a ball. I have learned a lot.
Oh yeah, Kerry and I were involved in a wreck Oct 4th when this young girl hit us broadside on the passenger side of the truck. Luckily, we weren't seriously injured.
She was driving on a revoked license and had no insurance. Only 17 years old too.
Well, will keep you posted.
Until next time!

At Last

Well, I graduated school on Friday, August 7th as a Certified Nursing Assistant/Professional Responder. It wasnt easy. It was an intense 4 week course. I took more than 30 test, and had to learn 27 life skills. I now have the State Exam to pass on August 22nd. I have some employment options going on...
Anyway, the heat of summer is here and Kerry and I have slacked off on the hiking. Too Hot.
Also, my poor Kerry gets so many chigger/mosquito bites its pitiful.
Not much else going on. Just concentrating on getting a job and getting back in the swing of things.

Keep u posted.

Catching up

First the good news. I learned yesterday that I had been

accepted in the Certified Nursing Program thru the American Red

Cross. Whats really cool is that everything is paid for by a Military

Grant I recieved through my dad.
God is definitely good.
Lots other been going on. On a sad note Kerry's cabin

in Canton, Ga was illegally trashed out.
He was devastated and so was I. But no matter what
we have each other and we'll get through it. Also have another
addition to the family. We picked up a tiny abandoned kitten on
a trail we usually hike. Hesitated to bring it home because of the
dogs.The kitten's name is Laurel; Kerry named him for the trail
we found him on. Another TRAGIC (for me) note, I've hurt my ankle

AGAIN!
I either hurt it when Kerry and I went to the B52 concert and danced
our heads off, or when we hiked ten miles down Evensville Mtn.
Either way it was worth it....I had a blast at the concert and the hike

was awesome!

Me shooting my bow

The bow I am using belonged to Kerry's mom.

(Kerry gave it to me!)

She was a Georgia State Archery

Champion; I feel very honored to be using it.

When Kerry introduced me to this sport I

fell in love with it. I try to practice with it every

day I can. So far Kerry tells me I am doing great

I have only been shooting for like 4 days but already

have gotten several bulls eyes.

Follow me on my way

Lot's has been going on. Many travels and adventures. Have been back to Georgia and sit here in Krystal's as I speak. I went to Skydive The Farm and saw several actual skydives at the Farm. We went hiking in the Piney River Creek with boots that got soaked…and have been moving a lot of Kerry’s stuff into the house, and packing some of it for a yard sale.

But most of all on May 15th, 2009 I had a Niece and Nephew graduate High School with top honors. My Niece has a scholarship to a top Christian college, and my Nephew graduated 16th out of 320 students. He is going into the Army for Military Intelligence. My best friend's daughter also graduated with Honors. She grew up with Jeremy and Anna. All in all, Graduation night was very emotional. Seen alot of people had not seen in years. MEMORIES!!!

On a bad note, I was informed on the Friday I was to start school that the state had withdrew funding for the program I was to go into. Now, at an impasse. Sometimes I have to think though it is all for a reason. Me not getting a job, and the school thing. Maybe it is so I can help Kerry more.

Keep you posted, pics to come.

Ce La Vie

Kerry just before demonstration jump

This pic is just before a demonstration jump that Kerry did

for the VFW.

Daisies Forever

Orange daisies..what could be more beautiful!